During that time my family and I have been on holiday a few times, ON AEROPLANES and not freaking out too much, like I would have before.
My doctor said if I'm happy on the meds there is no reason why I cannot stay on them indefinitely. I know some people frown upon this, but my quality of life has been so much better. I now feel like I now have the moods of a healthy minded person, meaning, I still have ups and downs, but nothing I can't handle now.
I've even combatted my phobia of the gym and go every day now, feeling really fit, but grrr, I'm heavier than ever now - I've gone up to a size 14! Maybe that is the only downside of these drugs :(
Well, if that is all I have to worry about, then it's not such a bad thing. I feel healthy!
If anyone actually reads this blog and is suffering the same or a similar thing, you can get through it, and don't be afraid of taking medication for it if you need to. If it improves your quality of life it is a good thing, and not something to be afraid of.
When I think back on how I was, I wish I had considered the feelings of my family more, but it's a hugely selfish illness and when you are in the throes of it, you can only think about yourself.
When you have moments of feeling ok, please show your family you love and appreciate them, it makes all the difference to them, they cannot understand what you are going through if they have never suffered it, so it is a very difficult time for them too.
xx
